Trulymauri

Today was a tually pretty sweet,I'm now 18 and its not so bad, I'm officially going out with Brandon, he's sweet, adorable, and totally my little white boy. Only down sides are that Nick pissed me off, and my mom forgot my b-day Its not like i didn't expect it to happen, but it would've been nice if she had. My friends were hella cool though, they pooled, and took me out to eat for lunch, it was YUMMMY!!!!! As for Nick he was just being a little insesitive bastard again. Ashely got stuck in the middle of it, and I feel kinda bad. Talked to Zach and worked crap out. Then I got To talk to Brandon like all day + a new book, all thats missing

So today I learned that Zach has been fooling around with another guy, cause he told me, and he also told me he did it while on E, lovely I know, hoever I discoreved that although I preteneded to myself that I was over him, in order to really get over him (cause i figured it would probably never happen, i mean come on, its me, what good guys actually like me?) That I still liked him, and I freaked out, bad, I ruined his night, I hit the wall and hurt my knuckles, then did it a couple of more times cause i just couldn't stop. Then i went on the self hate fest, you know, were you insult and abuse yourself for every little thing, yeah. Finally

Soo today was weird, i have the "hyper head ache" Jarred was so nice to me today I actually started blushing, and even when i was obvious that i was uber njoying the attention he kept going he even gave me his # then asked for mine! I almost squeeled but a realized how much more of a dead give away that would be. Johnny was awsome too, but then again he always is. Ashely and I talked about art again. ANgilina wrecked my friendship with Jesse cause first she eveasdropped then lied about it claiming i told her everything to her face *bitch* R-E-L and i planned a revenge against her that failed cause Miz Dub got in the way *darn her soo* I ma